Chapter Seven

Hey guys! Im sorry I've stop posting for a while , my twitter account has been suspended .. AGAIN! I dont know why! I gave it some time to see if maybe I would get my account back but it didnt work -.- ! so I've decided to post and God knows my some people are reading! if not i'll keep posting until I figure out a way to get my account back ... I seriously cant make another account! so anyway , heres chapter 7 for you guys and enjoy!

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I Could not believe what I just heard 5 seconds ago Yousif has feelings for me? it sounded unconvincing and unbelievable and really surprising.

Me: Huh?

Yousif: I Have feelings for you

Me: Sma3t .... but HUH?!

Yousif: I have had feelins for you for the past years , I just cant hold them anylonger

Oh my god.


Me: Ummm.

Yousif: Forgive me?

Me: Just because you have feelings for me dosent mean I forgive you...

Yousif: Adry

Me: Give it sometime maybe the forgiveness will slip out it self :D

Youisf: Haha , 3ady bacher I pick you up after school?

Me: Laish? plus maby my friends yshoufon

Yousif: I want to talk to you more , im your cousin tara muu wa7d ghareeb ;/

Me: Ummm fine , Yallah I Have to Go bye

Yousif: Bye

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I Hung up and layed my head on the pillow and started thinking and thinking and thinking ... Millions Of thoughts were running through my mind Until I fell into deep sleep. The rest of the week passed really quick And yousif picked me up everyday after school , We talked and talked remebering the good old days but still a part of me inside that had loads of hate for him ... blame me?

Finally it was the weekend I got home and my mom said we were going to the shalaih , I dont really enjoy going there but Atleast .... atleast nothing I hate going there -.- I went to my room and took a quick shower And I Got dressed into my jean shorts and my 1D t-shirt red and white stripped toms and I was good to go. The ride was really long but as always music keeping me amused

One Direction - more Than this<3
Katy Perry - Hummingbird heartbeat<3
Gym Class Heroes - Stereo Hearts<3

Once we arrived there yousif's car was parked outside .. Great more of yousif for the rest of the week -.- I got inside and went stright up to my room and started unpacking non of my girl cousins were here yet " Their routine was 360 on thursday and chalet the next day " and that was a good thing because I never got along with my cousin both from my mom's and dad's side , but ey I got my friends right? I Called Jana , mezyan and Jouri.
Jouri well ... she's diffrent but in a good way! Jouri was hyper active which drived all of the teachers CRAZY bs emsawyaa jaww w 7arakaa bil9af;p haha wallaah I love her! Jouri is about 161cm and she 15yrs old and has a beautiful body shape *mashallah curly black hair and the one with the braces! but hell yeah she rocked thoose braces! haha anyway .... I called Jouri , mezyan and Jana to join me at the shalaih The only one who could make it was Jouri, after few hours jouri arrived!

Me: JOOURRIII!!!!

Jouri: Hallaaaa nooourrr!! I miss yaa kalbaa!

Me: Nice way of showing you miss .. haha miss you more!

Jouri: Shtsaween yayah elshalaih? mu you hate it here?

Me: I do , but my mom said soo .... emshay nitmasha 3al ba7ar?

Jouri: Yalah!

Me and jouri started walking and talking Ma gitlaha 3an elyousif problem , mala da3y agoul 7ag elkil right? we kept talking and talking ... My mom called us and told us lunch was ready ... mashawy .... Yuuuuummmmmmmm<3

I told Jouri that I needed to use the bathroom , I went upstaris after I used the bathroom I checked my phone One new txt message ... for sure it was A text from wataniya I ignored it and put my phone back in my pocket and went down stairs to eat.

Jouri: Hey nour wain ur mobile?

Me: Kahu , laish?

Jouri: Aby shwaayy my phone 3alag -.-

Me: Sure hach .. w theres a message from wataniya delete it please ma 3alaich amr:D

Jouri: 7atherr;p

I Gave my phone to jouri and I countinued eating ... I saw face in complete shock.

Me: Jouri -.- ?

Jouri: ummm nour

Me: Hala?

Jouri: I Think you should see this.

I Took my phone from jouri and the txt message was open

" Hala nour , Shlounch Shakhbarich? Just wanted to check On you to see if your okay ... I hope your doing fine adry enah 9arlich fatra my sam3a 3any bs knt 7ab as2al 3anch w to see if your doing good      

- Jassim"

Wtf?

Chapter Six

Oh my god. Shasawy? Should I run? No I would look stupid .... Shloun I Act dead? No that would bring to much attention! Where are Jana&Mezyan when I need them so bad?! Ugh I had to deal with this on my self!

I Started walking the other direction where yousif was standing trying to avoid him , but my eyes were searching for my driver , where did that dumba*s go? -.-

Yousif kept coming and closer until he was right infront of me.

Yousif: Nour Ogfay Bakalmich

Me: Yousif mu al7een aby ard elbait

Yousif: Ana ely ra7 ag6ich elbait

Me: Na3am?

Yousif: Dagait 3ala omch w gitalah trd elsayg la2na dana w fara7  "his younger sisters" yabolich , bs ana bakalmich ba3dain bag6ich elbait.

Great , shyaby ba3ad? -.-

Me: Call my driver now aby arja3 ma3ah

Yousif: Khaleeny akalmich nour ... I know you know what I want to talk to you about , just let me explain?

Me: Explain what? I think what you did was pretty obvious.

Yousif: Rkbay elsayarah now 7ar w elawadim ga3deen ykhzoon

He's right , its BOILING and people ga3deen ykhzoon 7aaail!

Me: Fine , bs seedah etg6ny elbait?

Yousif: Okay rikbay rikbay w y9eer khair

I got Into his car without saying a word , he turned the car on and started driving ... at the begining the drive was silent until he finally spoke...

Yousif: Nour atwaqa3 ench dareetay

Me: Darait shnu? that you were sexua.....

Yousif: NO!!!!!!!!!!! was that what you thought!?

Me: Dont play dumb:) Knt ga3da a6al3 60 minutes and I found out.

Nazal Rasaah yousif as if he was embarrassed and ashamed ... but If he was why did he start it at the first place?

Yousif: Nour ana asif  *He started to tear-up* wallah I didnt know what was I thinking Kint yahil wagt'ha w entay ma tistahlain ely knt ga3d asaweeeh feech! Nour ana darait ench 3araftay min theek elyoum min el6areeqa ely kntay ga3da et6al3eeny feeha ... asif wallah asif.

Me: Asif huh? 3abalik ely saweetah feeny shwaya? 3ablik hathy l3bah? 3abalik I would forgive you easily ... not really yousif , I still cant believe you did this to me? Bnt khaltik ana tara! khal hatha 3anik ... fkrat enk sawait ely sawaitah , ma fakart etha darait shbe9eer feeny? wala when you did it you were just thinking about your self?

Yousif: Nour Asif wallah asif! ana 3ala ely saweetah ma 3indy galb! madry shloun tjara2t aswey ely saweetah! please nour please ... I only want a second chance , thats only what im asking for ..... everybody deserves a second chance .. dont I?

I Sat quiet for while , hes right he does deserve a second chance .... everybody does yat 3aleeh ohwa? yes what he did was something huge ... but unlike him I have a heart :)

We arrived home and I still havent said a word yet .. I wanted to make up my mind ... I wanted to make sure that he desrves a second chance

Me: Call me after 30 minutes ..

Yousif: Enshallah

I Got inside the house salamt 3ala my parents they went to my room changed my school uniform and started doing my homework ... after 30 minutes exactly yousif called.

Me: Alo

Yousif: Aloo Hala

Me: So What were you saying akhr shay bilsayarah?

Yousif: Second chance? would you give me that?

Me: Ely sawaitah mu mal a36eek a second chance........ why do you deserve and want this second chance?

Yousif: Because .......... Because I have feelings for you.









                     Oh.My.God

Chapter Five

I read the text message over and over again ,I couldnt believe my eyes ..... Was this Yousif? , and  if it was him how did he know I found out? And If he did what was he going to do? What was gonna happen? Endless questions were running through my mind ...... This is a complete nightmare.

" Nour shfeech tana7tay eb your mobile screen? " Asked Jana

" Hmmm la2 wala shay " I Said trying to not make it obvious that I have just read maybe the most scary thing I might ever read.But my friends knew me too well , Jana grabbed my mobile and Started reading the text ofcourse mezyan joined in.

" Oh my god. Yadry ench daraitay? ;/ " Said jana , she was surprised the had the ":O" face but even bigger ... and wierder  -_-

" Maybe mu ohwa! la2na im 100% sure ma gilt 7ag ghairkom! " I Said , but wait .. could he have found of by the way I was looking at him the other day? wait we arent sure this number is even his! seriously , can this get anyworse ? -.-


Incoming Call: 6*******

Asked and answerd :)! Me and girls screamed at once OH MY GOD. I dont want to answer I just dont! Shyaby ygouly? I think He was clear with that text! .... We were arguing either I should answer or not , I didnt want to but I accidently hit the Green Answer Button ....

              CRAAAAAAAAAP!!!!!!!!

-Phone Call-

Stranger: Alo

Me: Na3am

Stranger: Nour ana yousif

Me : Shatby? W Min wainlik raqmy?

Yousif: We are family agdar a6al3ah eb s'hoolah ya thakeya

Ugh. True -.-

Me : Enzain el7een shtaby?

Yousif: Atwaqa3 tadren laish dag 3alaich

Me: Nope dont think so bye!

Yousif: NOUR! khaleenah nitfaham!

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I Hung up before he could continue talking , his sound gave me that Nausea feeling , you know that feeling when you want to kill someone badly but something is stopping you? Your heart? Yup that was my exact feeling at that moment.

Yousif kept calling and calling but I kept ignoring & pressing the ignore button , The girls told me to answer maybe he wanted to apologize or something , yimkin 7as eb ghala6a yimkin nidam ... bs 3ogob shnu? ba3ad 9 sneen yay yit2asaf? bs etha yay yit2asaf laish daz elmsg ely tmsa3? hatha e3t'thar? He didnt apologise in the last 9 years so i'll keep ignorning him for the next 9 years ... fair enough ;) ?

We Kept watching the movie until it was 10pm And then the girls left , as soon as they left I put on my pjays washed my face and went to sleep as soon as I layed my head on the pillow................




" WAKE UP YOU HAVE SCHOOL COME ON!!" Yelled my maid , I hated when she does that but apperantly that was the only way I would wake up -.-

I got up got a quick shower , and put my school clothes on , checked my mobile -25 Missed Calls From Yousif- Ignored them ofcourse , grabbed my school bag and an apple and then headed to the car where 9adq "My driver" was waiting.

The School hours passed very   s  l   o  w   but finally at the end the bell rang :D!! I grabbed my things and went outside expecting to find my driver so he would carry my bag to the car instend I saw















Yousif.


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Chapter Four

We Both turned around to see who it was .. it was my brother faisal ... oh f*ck.

" Ma tita7achoon? " Said Faisal

" Yousif character eb a blog ana w jana ngrah! 9a7 Jana? " Trying to replay as calm as I could! I Pulled Jana's Phone Luckily she had an open web Page of a blog and one of the characters was Called yousif !

" Aah okay, Shlounch Jana Shakhbarch? " Asked Faisal

" 7mdalllah :) " Said Jana

" Umm Yalah akhaleekom " Said Faisal as he was leaving

Jana w faisal kanaw ma3 ba3ath gabil fatra , They hid it away from me at first but then I found out .. because of the age diffrence and Jana's mother nearly finding out about faisal the both decided to end it , althought I know they both have deep feelings for each other , but I decided not to do anything about it because I wanted whats best for Jana and It would be to damn awkward.

" WAAY that was so close!! " I told Jana , But I could sense the atmoshpere changed after my brother walked in " Janoo? Shfeech? " I Asked her.

" Maku. let's Call mezyan and tell her about this! " Suggested Jana , trying to change the subject!

Mezyan is My half moroccan friend , She has an amazing body mashalaah! Long Black Hair and cutest dimples ever=)) She's pretty much the "rare" kind of girl. She's the I give a damn about polatics and Syasa and I love make up kind of girl! And She's bossy -.- which really pisses me off sometimes , but what can I do? I love that crazy-a*s!

We Called Mezyan and told her about it at first she said " AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH WTF?! " "  20 diqeeqa w ana Jayah! " Mezyan Tends to talk a bit moroccan when shes nervious or hears something big!

While we were waiting for mezyan to show up Jana Asked " N , Are you okay? "

" No im not jana! Ye3ny ely 9ar feny mu shwaya , how do you expect me to be okay? Maby akbar akoun wa7da mt3aqda nafseyan! I Want to live normal althought I know thats not possible , ya3ny ely sawah yousif mu shwaya , ma3ndah galb? ma3ndah ra7ma? He's gonna live happy ever after ... and Me? haha. I dont have a reason to continue living wallah I dont " I Told Jana , I broke down infront of her and tears just started falling from my eyes I couldnt stop , I Just couldnt take it anymore! Jad Mu gadra asta7mil this bullsh*t anymore.

Jana Jumped up and gave me the biggest hug ever and started to say things just to comfort me , things such as " Its okay!! - things like this happen - I know how you feel " But her and I both know that NO its not okay , and that NO things like this doesnt happen , and 100% doesnt know how I feel! Nobody does at this moment , but you know what? I have two options: Either to continue crying on my friends shoulder or Start to make a change and try to forget! , I know its impossible to forgot about the harrasment because im sure that this will be carved in my memory forever , and maybe someday I will break down and cry on my friends shoulder again .. but what is life if we dont try?

A while later arrived Mezyan , We went outside to get her and as soon as I saw her she gave me the warmest hug ever , which made me realise I was super lucky to have friends like Jana and Mezyan around me ... Wallah im Blessed. <3

Mezyan As Well tried to comfort me by saying bad words in moroccan 7ag yousif and I admit it kinda made me feel better :D! and she brought me my fav. comfort food with her .... PICKLES DIPPED IN PEANUT BUTTER!

We Decided to watch a movie to keep my mind off of things , so we put on Love me , love me not one of my favs. <3 , While we were watching I felt my mobile vibrate in my pocket , I pulled it out and saw that I recived a new text message , I opened it and couldnt believe my eyes


6*******:

























Etha Gitlay 7ag a7ad matlomeen elah nafsich , fahma?

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Chapter Three

At first I ignored the voice , as if I havent heard a thing because I was scared that if I turn my back around I would see Mr.Basterd ( Yousif ) ....

" Rday 3alay laish ta7gren? " he said

" Ga3da ashrab may " I said , at the end I turned out and to see who it was , yup It was yousif , talking to him just made me want to punch his face hard.

" Rday 3adil , w ta3alay laish tmsa3 ga3da etkhzeen chthy? " Said Yousif

" I look at people like that all the time , have a problem with that? " I said hoping he would .... pretty much hoping yaglib wayha :)

" Ta7achay 3adil fahma? " His tone got stronger and stronger

" Shouff!! " I wanted to continue talking but my Uncle M7amad walking in the kitchen.

Khaly M7amad is seriously the best every! I love him with all my heart! hes about 23 years old and hes the best! hes like a brother to me hes even closer than my brothers khalid and faisal , they pretty much dont exsist in our house!

Anyway

" Shfeekom? ;s " Said Khaly M7mad "

" Maku shay " We both said , acting as if we werent going to get into a fight 5 seconds ago!

I got out of the kitchen heading back to my girl cousins , maby a6il eb wayha again that disgusting face of his as I call it ! if you think about it I call him plenty of names! well he deserves it , what he did was not something the could be forgotten eb s'hoolah , sexual harrasment? dont you have a heart? well wath7 he doesnt.

It was time to head back home , I was dying just to go to bed! ( yes its true im officialy in love with my bed ) ;D As soon as I got home I rushed up into my bedroom changed into my monkey pjays!

As soon as I layed my head on the pillow , suddenly I couldnt sleep I just wanted to cry , I just needed to pour it all out , my head was spinning and my body was shaking , and my tears were streaming down my face , I dont know what was happening to me! I tried to stop , ga3adt asamy bilra7man over and over , I kept a quran next to my bed w ga3adt agra every aya I layed my eyes on then I tried going to sleep hoping it will all stop , at the end 7mdallah it stopped!

I woke up the next day feeling much better , I decided not to tell anybody about what happend yesterday I kept in mind that keeping my mouth shut would be much better!

So it was 4 and jana called me and told me she was outside , I put on my hollister dress and let my hair down and went outside to get jana.

" Zr3eeny akthar 3ady mangoul la2! " Said Jana

" 7mday racbh 6la3tlich 7abeebty! " I said

" Ugh, anyway! golay shfeech? " Said jana

" I'll tell you as long as tw3deeny matgouleen 7ag a7ad! fahma? " I told her , I do trust jana but this was major! sexual harrasment wasnt anything , I was still not sure to even tell her or not!

" Nour its me jay , seriously ya3ny ? " said jana , giving me that " -.- " look! LOL I loved it when she does that =)) <3

" Okay , here it goes ..... " so I started telling her everything .. from A-Z .. what did he do, when did he start , things he did and how did I found out!

After I finished talking jana said " OMG! THAT SICK-ASS BASTERD! MU MIN 9IJAH! AND MA TA7ACHAYTAY BECAUSE?! MAYNOONA HALL YOUSIF 3ALA ELY SAWAH!! "


then we heard someone standing behind us and said " laish mnu yousif? w shswa? "

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Chapter Two

Weeks have passed and the more and more I became depressed and teird in every way possible! I could not believe I was so stupid all the time and never knew what that piece of c*ap was doing to me , why me? why? what have I ever done to him? I was a young inocent child trying to enjoy everyday in life!

Non of my friends knew about the harrasment , but I was in desprate need to talk to somebody , if I tell my mom shes gonna hate her own sister for what her son has done to her daughter! if I tell my friends they might as well never talk to me again .. so I decided to keep my mouth shut until I figure out what to do.

So it was friday , zwara! I loved my grandparents so much! they were just so amazing! so I actually looked forward for going to the zwara every weekend :D and since yousif is now in collage so he dosent come anymore ! ASHWA I said to my self because I seriously didnt want to look at his face , that heartless face of his , ugh akraha .. jad wai3.

" yallah 7abeebty namshy? " said mum

" eeh okay bs digeegah khan abadil :D " I said

" NOUR ana mu gitlich enah sa3a 3:30 eb namshy!!" said mum with that pissed off voice

" mama im human I forget! " I said

" Inzain inzain bs khalseenah rou7ay badlay!" she said

So I went upstairs and got dressed , I reaallyyy was not in the mood to wear anything speacial besides kilha zwara akshakh 3ashan mnu? -.- , so I put on my grey hollister pullover ( actually its not mine stole it from my brother khalid :D ) and my dark blue skinny jeanz and my red toms , hair messy bun and grabbed my mobile so I was good to go!

Me and my little sister Dallal and little brother Jara7 raced to see who sits in the front seat  of my mom's lexus, shay 6abee3y kilma n6la3 chthy -.-

On our way my phone started vibrating like hell! I instantly knew who it was ofcourse the lovley my friend Jana!

Jana is really pretty mashallah! like I admit prettier than I am! shes 160cm long medium length wavy hair , nafs jismy taqreeban so if my outfit is missing , 100% 3ndaha=))

-BBM-

Jana: PING!!!
         PING!!!
         PING!!!

Me: Wjaa3 shtabeen!

Jana: Awadim tggoul na3am

Me: Next time inshallah -.-

Jana: LOL -.- anyways wainch these days malich 7s

Should I tell her? I trust jana shes one the of the closest people to me! she knows me well and so do I!

Me: Ta3abana shway.

Jana: You expect me to believe that?

Me: Yes:D

Jana: Bachr Im coming to your house sa3a 4 to see whats wrong!

Me: Fine

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So we reached grannys house , a7la shay laman ree7at elbkhour etkoun wa9laa laih baraah , ya salaaaaaaaaaam<3 

I got inside and salamt 3al kil , until I saw that person sitting in the corner with that annoying look and their face....

Yousif.

Na3am? what was he doing here! ya3ny ma yah ela after the weekend I found out what he was doing me all that time in the past years? wai3 maly khilg ashouf wayha! akraha jaad I do! I used to love hanging out with him but now? tfo go die yousif;) 

I gave him that really shitty look , that I hate you 7ail look , I just couldnt stand being in the same room with him so I got up and went to sit with my girl cousins , his younger sisters , I loved them so much but | hated their older brother , should I tell them I said to myself , La2 Nour la2! they are family etha ta7achaytay ma tadreen shbe9eer!! so I listend to my commen sense and just sat down and started to chatt with the girls .

I went to the kitchen to get me a glass of water , while I was drinking I heard this  voice saying


" Ta3alay bakalmich "

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Chapter One

 I was sitting at home watching tv while the maid was cleaning the rooms that were next to where I was sitting , it was another boring sunday morning -_- but I was super sick so I didnt go to school :D

    Nour Lift your leg I want to clean !" said my maid " 

So im Nour! Im 15 years old about 157cm long , thin but im never satisfied with my  body ... I have long black hair semi-curly , im that kind of person that gives great some great advices but Im too stupid and I never listen to them when I need them!

anyway

I lifted my legs up but in the same time my eyes were stuck on the tv screen , there was a show on called 60 minutes , the episode was talking sexual harassment , how kids or teenagers have been through that , it was heart breaking but yet really surprising ... how would men actually had the heart to do that to thoose poor innocent children , anyway , I kept watching and watching , then the show started talking about the things    that harassers slowly did in order to do their buisness at the end. watching step and step kept reminding me of somebody

My Cousin

All these things that they did , things that my own cousin did to me! the exact same   things that my older cousin did to me when I was young , I was surprised and confused I needed someone to talk to that moment but nobody was there , all these years I never knew that my cousin Yousif was doing what he was doing , but at that moment , I knew it , me Nour Al*** was actually 

. Sexualy harrast